Something cool happened. Once I’m done with exams. It will be here. maybe. but this is coming back. I feel it. 

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Do you have words that when you hear them it just sets off an emotion or memory? I like to call them trigger words because everyone person has their own definition or interpretation of a word based on their experiences, beliefs and values. Some words, when people hear they react or feel things. Sometimes it brings up past memories. For example, 9/11, when people hear those numbers or that date, they think back to where they were, family members they may have lost or how the country changed. Some people react more “outrageous” than others. 

I have my own trigger words. The reason why I react to certain words was based on my upbringing and past experiences. Some make me happy and bring back joyous moments from my childhood, others cause me to be upset or angry because of the memory attached to them. Some words, cause more pain and hurt than others. 

Some words, people like to “show” off the emotions, especially if there is a positive connotation. Other times, people try to hide it or push it in their back of the mind because they don’t want others to know.

Trigger words are interesting and unique. Everyone has them whether you realize it or not.  

I’m starting to think that makes me happy is seeing other people happy. I do things all the time that makes me happy but sometimes I lose that happiness quickly. But when I see my friends and family happy, that’s when I’m happy. 

When my boyfriend got his present, he was so happy and knowing he appreciating the gesture and was happy made me the happiest I’ve been in weeks. 

Maybe that’s all it takes. 

Today, I was able to single task for about 60% of it. I spent most of my day studying for a midterm so that explains why but when I wasn’t studying, I was usually browsing the internet, watching tv, and eating all at the same time. It’s going to be hard for me to get used to single tasking during the week because I am so used to having routine filled with multitasking.

Another resolution I made was to build stronger relationships not just intimate ones but with friends, family, peers etc. This week I started one of my task. I’ve been dating my boyfriend for 2 years and now we kind of got in a routine where we always see each other on certain days or get lunch/dinner on weekly “appointment.” This ends up happening because we are both so busy with work, clubs, classes, research etc. Having a routine with him, sometimes makes me sad because there’s no surprises or anything new. Once awhile we go out to dinner or watch a movie but that’s really once in a month. So what I wanted to do was change things up and try to have little surprises for the week. 

Today, I was able to surprise him with his favorite snacks. The best part of this surprise was when we came back from class it magically appeared on his bed. It seemed he was pretty happy with it. Not only knowing he was happy made me happy but planning this whole week lifted my spirits, a little. I love surprising people and planning. As I try to figure out what to do and how to do it, I got a little excited. As of right now, I’m pretty happy with the relational aspect and hopefully it keeps going. 

Yes, I skipped a day. Because I was so busy! 

Yesterday morning, I was running around getting Halloween costumes, presents and errands. For the most part I focused my attention on the task at hand. I created goals of what I needed to get and how much I allotted for shopping and it worked. In the process I was able to find cool knick-knacks and gifts. Afterward I was “M.I.A.” studying for a midterm. I locked myself in a room, put my phone away from me, turn off wifi and wrote 5 essays. I was very determined to finish my review for my exam on Monday, so I can enjoy my night. In addition, since I separated myself from distractions I was able to focus on my work. 

In the evening, my boyfriend came over for a cute date (because we haven’t had one for a month!) and it was nice. We cooked dinner together than watched movies and the whole time I kept my phone away from me. I think that’s what made the night so much fun because we focused our attention on each other and what we were doing. While we were cooking, I was getting text messages from people but I didn’t reply (mainly because my hands were covered in breadcrumbs). It was nice to enjoy alone time with him especially since we’ve been so busy that we rarely do anything “fun.”

Today was pretty good. This afternoon, I got caught up in a little “multitasking.” While studying I did my laundry. I don’t know if that counts as multitasking because technically to do laundry you just put your clothes in the machine and then you don’t think about it until the timer goes off. Other than that I was truly focused on all my activities.  

Overall I think this weekend I did a great job single tasking because I was able to develop a set schedule/goals and I had more time to do things. During the week, I have class, meetings, studying, games etc. so my time is precious and I try to fit in the most I can. The weekend gives me time to “relax” and have more time for all I want to do. 

Special shout to Team Rick Ross Grunt for the second win of the season! 2-0!